I'll admit: I'm afraid. I'm afraid of falling in love. I'm afraid of someone falling in love with me. With all my faults. With all my mistakes. Despite my vanity. Despite my selfishness. Despite my ugliness inside and outside. I'm afraid I never live up to their expectations. Even if they have none, I'm afraid I won't make a lasting enough impression. I put so much pressure on myself and on this one person to be perfect. We must be perfect. I don't accept less than perfect. 
Perfect doesn't exist. And this is why I'm alone.
It's better this way. 


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